Mini update thingggg

Hey folks, sorry about the lack of update stuff -- I promise I've tried, but every time I sit down to write I just get all tangled up. I've been doing the therapy thing for a few weeks now (2 sessions, really -- we skipped a week) and I think it's been helping...but I had kind of a backslide Wednesday. Today/yesterday have been better, but I still feel like...part of me is waiting to really be convinced that this is all worth it, and like no matter what I do or how hard I work (on [whatever]) it won't ever really matter. So that's something I want to try to drag up in my session tonight -- that and some (more) potential coping tricks so I can make it through one fucking work shift my god

My manager has kind of gently hinted about asking about medication, and I might be ready to go that route -- but some of the potential side effects make me nervous, and the only time I've really been prescribed anything was one time, and it was waaayyyy the wrong thing. I know I stay kind of vague about symptoms, largely because I'm not going to try to diagnose myself -- so I don't even know what I'd start out on -- but there's also price to consider, and starting to think about all this is usually when my brain starts to just throw out a lot of "why the fuck"s.

I'm plugging along, though; yesterday got better (semi-productive smash!) and I did manage to finish my shift Wednesday despite the meltiness.

Got an anime post-type thing in the works, and

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I started a co-op art blog thing with a friend of mine. It has some stuff on it? You can find it right here, yo.